A lot of people are resistant to change, and I can completely understand why. The unknown territory that you are going into is terrifying. How are you meant to be okay with the fact that there is a 50% chance that plans could go wrong? The one thing that life is not is simple...and the reason for that is because life changes.
Every day something new happens, and you either accept it and move on, or you wallow in self pity and don't get anywhere. Making a decision as to which road I go down hasn't been the easiest, because recently I have wanted to do a lot of wallowing. Then one day I heard this quote..."Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain". I know what you're thinking, how cheesy? But in all honesty, without motivational Pinterest quotes recently, I don't know what sort of state I would be in right now. This quote has made me realise that I need to ride with the good and bad things that come my way, and that I need to make sure that I am learning through absolutely all of it.
All of us acknowledge that nothing is going to improve by itself, so maybe there is no time to move forward like the present? Change comes in all different shapes and sizes, and unfortunately the changes in my life recently have been pretty huge and to be honest, haven't felt so great. The reality of life is that when things are tough, it is hard to come back from them. However, being the type of person that I am, if I didn't dust myself off and try and see the positives looking forward, then that just wouldn't be me.
I am a creature of habit, and when things go wrong, I struggle the most with the lack of structure. Things aren't orderly, or manageable, so when things go a little bit tits up, the main thing for me to aim for is stability. When life has been affected by things out of your control you are forced to be flexible and this kills me. After you take some time to re-evaluate the direction you are going in, you take back the reins of your life and you develop, whether you realise it or not. We are developing all the time, even from the changes that did not lead you to where you thought you were heading. That is the beauty of living life!
In every part of my life I have strived to be good, if not the best. I don't know what it is about me, but clearly I have a competitive streak. When life knocks you back, the competitiveness often either increases, or like in my case, decreases. Now don't get me wrong, put a monopoly board in front of me, or take me to a miniature golf course and my competitive side will definitely make an appearance. In life though, what I have realised a lot recently is that no matter what I am doing, I can't always be the best. Let's face it, being the 'best' doesn't always bring the most joy to your life. So unless I love myself for all my best achievements, but also for all the failures or losses, then what benefit do I get from being competitive?
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