Every so often I can imagine that lots of bloggers become a little bit exhausted and lack in motivation when it comes to blogging. For me, I feel like there are never enough hours in the day and although I am bursting with ideas, I just don't have enough time to get it all down.
Five and a bit months ago I started my first full time job since university and travelling. This job has changed my world and everything in it - I am excited when I get up in the morning, I look forward to what challenges come my way and in a sense, I have never felt more alive. All this excitement sure does come at a price though, and unfortunately my blog is the key thing that is taking a beating.
As I work quite ordinary hours for an office job it means that after work I feel like I need to make the most of the few hours I have before bed. Sometimes I like to lie down on the sofa with my other half and catch up on all our favourite TV shows, and sometimes I have the urge to visit lots of friends or catch up with my loved ones - whatever my choice, it involves living.
When I first started my blog, I posted when I wanted and about what I wanted. Now although I am only at 600 followers, I have got to the stage where I feel like my originality and desire to post about anything has disappeared. This is because in the modern world of 'blogging', it can feel like if you don't have a set area to categorise yourself under then sometimes you can be seen as not taking it very seriously. Of course if I lived in another world, I would love to spend all my life blogging and taking pictures and generally living my life behind a camera; but that isn't the real world for most people and I unfortunately have to earn a living by going out to work Monday to Friday. As a result of this, my life consists of lots of different things - work, love, fashion, beauty, food, family, technology, cars, animals.....the list goes on, and this means that I could never 'categorise' myself as a blogger with just one topic to talk about.
I want to go back to September 2009 when I started my blog and tell myself to not worry about the pressures that may come along the way and to ignore the rude or hurtful comments - but of course, that is not possible and I need to live for the now and learn from the experiences of the past. From now on I want to post when I can and I will not allow myself to feel like a failure if I don't receive any page views or comments as it's unrealistic to expect the world to come to you if you do not go to them. I may from time to time just post a picture and not say anything about it, or even just a post with my thoughts that day - essentially I want to strip my blog back to the very basics and explore how it feels to just type...like I am now.
I completely understand if this might not be your thing and I get it that I have just typed quite a lot...but I think in some sort of therapeutic way, this will be helpful for me. Every so often I think it is beneficial for people to take a step back and appreciate life for what it is, rather than what it could be and I think this is something I need to acknowledge a hell of a lot more. My life right now is pretty damn good and although there are always bound to be some speed bumps along the way, I should be incredibly grateful for my family, my boyfriend, my friends and colleagues, and I should be grateful for the things I have achieved throughout my life.
I think what I'm trying to say is - the blogging world is incredible, some people achieve a lot financially, some people achieve a lot emotionally, and some people don't achieve anything at all. The fact that I am even in this community part time is enough for me and I hope that if anyone does actually read this, then they will realise that you shouldn't put pressure on yourself to blog as it will take away the fun like it did for me.
If you have something you would like me to read then please do let me know as I'd love to check out some new blogs. For now, its 22:09 and I am going to be good for once and go to sleep - unheard of!
Love to each and every one of you.